Oh, two things I missed was, well, I always think of myself like, that again, if I, the potential is like, not the producer is wrong or bad, but like, that I could be a composer, but I don't, and like, arrangements and composition is my point, is what I feel my pinnacle, like, that my potential is. Even, well, whatever, I don't need to say names, and I don't even have names in mind to be honest, so I would compare myself to, except for, like, when I say, like, mine is like this, or I feel like I play kind of like this, or I'm in, but that's what I'm present to play, but my point is, I don't know if you can teach me the difference between what those two things are, because I, for whatever, intuitively, I feel like, drawn to, semantically drawn to a composer, arranger, symphony, like, that I have that, like, that's what I'm saying, I've been creating those in my mind, or my mind has been created, again, it feels kind of like, goes away around my mind, has been creating those, and I've been participating in them, and enjoying them, and co-creating, because, yeah, it's both, like, my mind, that spontaneously, naturally creates music, and then I also consciously create with it, and from it, from scratch, and with the music that comes, so there's music that arises from me, that I don't feel like I, you know, that I just hear, or if I just, and then there is, and then from that music, I also can make choices, and shape it, or even from scratch, I can just, you know, and start to make choices without hearing something to start with, again, my mind is like, for whatever reason, I don't know how to, again, that's kind of love that I, one of the things in my life that's so magical, I don't know how to explain, but music is, you know, like, always at the center of, like, so many things for me, it's like, my, like, idea of, again, like, religion and spirituality, or, like, God, but, like, it's, I don't see it that way, it's just, I don't know how to explain it, it feels so universally, like, connected to, like, something bigger than myself, or that's something that I just know, it's like, it makes me feel, you know, alive, and in a way that connects to the universe in a way that is not, I can't put into words, that I don't, I didn't choose to be connected to them, like, grateful for, and also them, like, again, like, I didn't choose to have the seed, but I did choose to tend the garden, so I think it's okay to take credit for building the skill, but also to be, like, I know that not everybody was born with this musical brain, so a part of me is, like, I did not earn, like, yes, it is incredible, but also, yeah, it doesn't make me feel also super confident or cocky, because I didn't earn it, like, it doesn't feel hard to me, you know, I mean, this, some of this technical stuff is hard, and the ways that it's hard, I didn't get to places where things are, like, you know, and stuff that's hard, but, like, the actual, like, music is the opposite of hard, it simply is, again, that's why the theory is always, like, again, it's not even learning why things work, because to me, I intuitively, like, why they work is because they work that way, like, I don't know how to explain it, I'm connected to, like, the source of, like, music of, like, I know, I don't need, it would be, like, how you can't, you don't need to explain me to me, like, I am me, but then you can give me, like, names for it that we can use together, but, and something, I mean, that's not fully true, there is probably a theory that I do learn, especially with rhythm and drums, and it does make sense, like you said, because it does feel musical to me, and it doesn't make sense that it's in a different part of the brain, since we're talking about how all this is connected to my brain cognitively, but now that I'm hearing it also, and, like, actively learning it, I'm learning how it is a part of music, and, like, and then how it even was more present than I was hearing in my mind, because I thought there was a lot of music that I don't, that, like, anyway, I'm hearing it, like, not musically, like, so that's helpful to, like, learn it separately and technically, because now I can, like, simultaneously add that creative, like, texture to it, and it's a little, not fully, but a little bit more creative, and, like, able to be understood in a musical sense, or, like, again, I hear it, but, like, that's what I need to create also, it's, like, with the blueprint that we create, like, I don't know, like, like, I could create literally just vocal tracks, like, humming. These are singing, like, I can hear it all, and I could just, like, be, like, okay, electric guitar, okay, and then there's a steel guitar that goes, and then there's, okay, like, I can sing, but the pitch, the notes of all the different things that have pitches, if that would help me beforehand too, and also the rhythm of them, but it's hard still, even though I can do all that, it's still very hard to, like, get in the correct rhythm, it's very hard, especially now that I'm working in real tempo instead of rubato, but, again, I'm learning, again, but I don't feel like that's what I need, I don't feel stuck anywhere, I don't feel like I have a really good question, I just feel like I have a bunch to learn, and, like, again, I don't have so much time, so none of this is supposed to sound like, please help me, not in a way that I don't want more, it's just, like, I don't feel like I need to play it, or it should be anything to be explained to, I feel like I am just kind of sharing with you all that I've learned, and I know so much more, like, I already have, like, the next, you know, I can't even, I don't see an end in sight of, like, where I can go around musically, but I already felt that way, it's just, like, this is a huge level up, and, again, I see myself level up, but that's why I know this world is big, because I get, I can, you know, well, I can just tell, and relate, like, I see little steps, and this was, like, again, like I've described, and you've told me it's like a cognitive experience which tracks with everything I've described, which tracks with everything you're explaining to me, what I experienced, so, yeah, it was very incredible, and, yeah, it felt like a leveling up, not like a whole, like, I bought, like, again, like, it makes very much sense to say, like, for going from 2D to 3D, it's not like I had never seen, it's like I had a natural skill that was strong before, but it was, like, too, yeah, I went from 2D to 3D, and so it's, like, not like I was not a good animator, it's, like, I just was introduced to, like, a new, fucking form of the art form, and give them, like, a whole new, fucking, you know, palette architecture now, and ways to, like, learn and work, or, and I also just, I can tell that my, clearly, my, it's, like, when you can see you're practicing, you know, my skill is, like, leveled up, so my ability now to be able to do what I could do, it just, like, went from, like, you know, a 6 to, like, a 8.9, so just, like, went way, way up, instead of, like, just going up, like, 0.3, like, it's, like, shot up to, like, oh, I can very distinctly hear, like, 15 tracks when they come in, understand now tempo in a better way, and, like, start to understand at least basic skeletons, like, kick and snare, and if, even if I can't understand the whole thing, or fills, or all that, yeah, start to understand, start to hear, like, hear how complex and how many parts there actually are, when, again, to me, sometimes it all, again, I heard it all, but as, like, a flat one, it's, like, I could have told you each thing had still gotten to the same place that I can get now, probably, kind of, but, like, I just can do it, like, now way easier and faster, and, like, better, totally, again, don't feel like I went from 0 to something, like, I just developed a new sense, it's just, like, this, like, it's, like, I got a superpower of, like, a superpower I already had, or I thought was a superpower, but it was, like, not, like, if it were, like, a Pokemon, like, but if I can evolve, like, that's ideal, but I need from, like, my second to my third evolution, or something, it already was, like, the second evolution, now it's, like, I'm, like, the third, yeah, and, again, also just very humble, and also just very, like, there are so many, oh, I love that song, and I played that on piano, so that's actually a good choice by you to say something, I want to, definitely want to end up doing something with that again later, but I'll tell you a couple songs that, like, I'll tell you a couple songs that, see, that I, the two that I want to do are one, or three, and that I was working on last night, so I'll be able to do it faster tonight, I should be able to, because I've already started doing it in my brain, and then my brain saves all that, you know, and not word for word, but when I go back into that space, it will light up easier and faster, if that makes sense, some of that, and some of it will be that, not all of that, but I have two songs in mind, and then you can tell me if you can get, give access to them, that I wanted to do this with next, but that I've been doing that, like, as part, because I really enjoy these songs, and I'm not, I do want to rebuild them, but also, I'm just, when I get into the depth part, I just start enjoying the music again.
